Rant

This means a lot to me, it was written over a year ago durring a quiet emotional break down. This is something I havn't told my mother nore anyone in my family about... and I am dreading their finding this though I know this is the only way I can exress my fealings on this matter. Please actually read this before commenting, and please none of that "You're sick" crap, if you have a problem with this and its horrid spelling as of the origional posting of it, then my imaginary gaurd-fish will sneak into your neighbor's house and suck his/her spleen out through a straw.